Okay, I have decided on what I want from Paul for Valentines Day this year. Usually I am just happy if he remembers to get me a card or some candy. This year, however, I know exactly what I want ahead of time.
My official request is for 1 day off. I want one day where I don't have to go to my job, take care of the baby, run any errands, do any grocery shopping, or do anything else that even remotely seems like work.
I haven't had a day off like that since we had our anniversary last summer, and even then I was too worried about leaving Will behind to relax. We got to spend a night in Layton at the Anniversary Inn, but Will was only 3 months old and Nina was watching him. No matter how much I assured myself that everything would be fine for one night I was still anxious to be away from him.
The only real problem that I have with asking for a day off is that it makes me feel really guilty. Somewhere in the back of my head a little voice keeps telling me that I am being selfish to want to have everyone else do the work for one day. I keep feeling that if I take a day off everything falls on Paul's shoulders and that's not very fair.
Is it wrong of me to be selfish, or wrong of me to feel guilty? I get dizzy just thinking about it...